Life

Life. It can be amazing and awesome in one moment. Terrible, dark, and crappy in the next. But you already knew that. Everyone knows this. It's a fact of life that our lives are like roller-coasters but only usually we cannot see what is in front of us or what is going to happen no matter how much we would like to know. And really, we don't know when the ride will stop. But what we do know is who is in our cart with us, experiencing life with us and sometimes we get to choose who we want next to us. But often, we need have to accept what comes our ways and learn to deal with the uncertainty of life.

At the beginning of the year, I thought that it was going to be one of the best years of my life. I was in second year at school, taking classes I would much rather be taking, I was living back at home developing a better relationship with my family, becoming closer friends with people I already knew (while knowing that I would make a couple new friends along the way). But also, I got the opportunity to be on a worship team at both my school, a regional campus for church, and for my young adults group. Furthermore, I was also asked to join as a leader for my young adults group. To  me, my year was going to be great.

But as of recently, a couple of these amazing things have since disintegrated from my life without me wanting them to. And this has left me surprised, hurt, but mostly confused. Confused as to how all of this has happened but also confused as to why God allowed such things to happen. My life was starting off to be really great this year and then it was as if someone pulled the rug from beneath me.

I have noticed though that when we are in hard times, we tend to reflect on our lives. Now I was not reflecting on how I allowed bad things to happen to me because I did not actively played a part to my demise, however I have been reflecting this week as to why God would allow me to be stepping down from certain things. And really I don't know why things happen, but I always believe that things happen for a reason.

Maybe the reason was that in the near future I will be needed to help lead a different group and in order for that to happen I would need more time. And maybe the only way for more time to be created is if I was forced to step down from things. I honestly do not know. But I do know that it is better to try to see either a positive or that there is a positive outcome eventually than to sit and mope all day. Pity parties can be great, but they're always enjoyed alone.

So keep your chin up (couldn't help but include this cliche) and talk to someone if something is going on. But know that life won't always be good but it won't always be bad. Sometimes we get caught up in believing that the world we live in is always dark but know that there are people who care for you who want to help you in life. And there is always that special someone who loves you (even if it's your mom).

How will you look at life? Trying to see the positive even if it's hard to see? Or will you live in the gloomy darkness?

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